It's raining
An autumn's eve
Logs burn brightly in the fire
Burn on, logs
Hardwood floor stretches around
I sit, crosslegged in the middle
Feeling warmth, blue warmth
Fill the air
Scent of night fills the air
Scent of fall, scent of rain
Though the runaway train is here
Though my heart's been buried in pain
And I'm not quite certain this is real
Somedays I open my eyes, look around
What is this world, so strange
That I am in
And I look who's beside me
She is not you
She can never be you
Can't speak, call her love
For she isn't, not in my heart
Ten months, I've been here
Filling myself with this hope
Of seeing you
Maybe let down once too often
One too many attacks of paranoia
It all came tumbling down
Love, buried in pain, heartache
And now I wake in this place
With her beside me
But she is not you
She can never be you
Can't speak, call her love
For she isn't, not in my heart...
You know I'd do anything
To bring us together in space
If I could do that, I wouldn't be here
I'd be by your side, whereever
Whenever, however that could be.
But, no matter how many times I close my eyes
Wish you were here
You're never here, I'm never there
So I walk by her side
But she is not you
She can never be you
Can't speak, call her love
For she isn't... not in my heart...
You know it, I know it
I've just been too blind to see
That you love me
As I love you
No matter how happy I am with her
I always have the moment
When a song comes on
I somehow find, you and I collide
Or a phrase comes up
Great minds think alike
Or someone says a name
So me and Courtney last night
Or another song
So bye bye Ms. American Pie
Or yet another song
And I'd give up forever to touch you...
I see your face before my eyes
A small sad smile comes to my face
In memories of days gone by
And hopefully yet to come
When I walk by your side
You are you
You will always be you
I'll speak, call you my love
Because you are always in my heart
So why do I walk beside her
Who isn't you, can never be you
Call it a break, call it a test
It's just too much for me now
So frustrated with life and it's problems
With never seeing you...
Never holding you...
Always missing you...
Crying late at night...
Missing you...
You're never there to hold me
To comfort me when I need it
You're never there...
So I'll walk beside her
But I won't speak
Won't call her my love
Because she isn't...
Not in my heart...
In my heart
I'll always walk with you
Where ever we will go
For you will always be
My partner, my soulmate
My one true love
