Tonight is
The blackest
Of all nights
Of all time
I search for
The right song
That fits my
Blackest thoughts
You have been taken
Away from my love
Buried in shadow
No hope for restart
You were my love
Whom I desired
Yet you are lost
For all of time
The way we kissed
The way we hold
The other, all
Through the long night
And my father
Says we cannot be
Even close friends
As on that night
The perfect night
Is its only name
Holding you tight
Yet a problem remains
Together, through night
Yet alone, in heart
As much as I want
You do not want
And when I return
My parents wait in anger
My friends, in laughter
My love, repressed
For so many years
Love and I have not
Been together long
Why, I know not
As I write now
My questions return
Why did you leave
You and you and you
Why, in my dark hour
Do I fall apart
Why do I cry
Why must I love
How can I find
Another like you
How can I love
Another and you
How can one love
One such as I
How can one survive,
One such as I
Why must I care
Why must I hurt
Why must heartbreak
Find me, night after night
Why do I stare
Up at the stars
Why do I think
Of ending it all
How do they know
hat my life is like
To be always alone
Completely alone
How can they know
The pain, the sorrow
Of loving you madly
Yet never to have you
How can I continue
I'm falling apart
Love has brought this on
Love of you and you
And as I turn
In the darkness
Which surrounds me
I see only walls
I see you thinking
You have done me good
By lying, yet
You have not
Deep into night
My regrets surface
And I think about
Giving it all up
Give up my quest
For true love in life
Give into my lust
And forget about love
Forget those who say
I'm kind and caring
Sweet, romantic and smart,
And move into darkness
Block all of those
For whom I've cared
Move into lust
And forget love
In my darkest moments
I consider my life
What is it worth
What have I done
I've failed in love
So many times
Made myself a fool
So many times
Alone in a crowd
Alone among friends
Alone no matter where
Always alone
Bonds of love remain
They will soon fade
And I will become Death
For I have taken my soul
